What else can you do when all you have is bed? As usual, lying on the bed all day everyday. Well, I downloaded tons of ebooks, reloading this particular site that can download movies but sadly I’ve been doing this since last night and still cannot. I really want to watch movie now! I’ve finished two books. played sims, google fashion trends, google sites for free movies, checked insta, checked twitter, scroll down fb, my eyes hurts but still i’m bored. I’ve been having backache due to often stay here. I wanna go home.
“Do you know when you’ve lost something—like your favorite T-shirt or a set of keys—and while looking for it, you come across something else you once missed but have long since forgotten? Well whatever it was, there was a point where you decided to stop searching, maybe because it was no longer required or a new replacement was found. It is almost as if it never existed in the first place—until that moment of rediscovery, a flash of recognition.
Everyone has one—an inventory of lost things waiting to be found. “Yearning to be acknowledged for the worth they once held in your life.
I think this is where I belong—among all your other lost things. A crumpled note at the bottom of a drawer or an old photograph pressed between the pages of a book. I hope someday you will find me and remember what I once meant to you.”
- Love & Misadventure.
I fell asleep last night. I don’t know why I woke up late, but thanks to Luis our midterm exam is moved. I’m loving the weather, the silence around my apartment. Where I am alone tucked under the sheet of my comforter feeling cold. This afternoon, I finished reading the book. The ending isn’t quite aching like the ones who left you hang up and no idea what you’re going to do with your life because mostly novels do steal your presence and attached it to them. I never cried in books the way I cried in tfios, I regret reading it on ebook. I should have bought the book on the first time I saw it, one year ago so I can highlight those lines. My boyfriend will come over in an hour, yet I’m thinking about going back to South so I can watch the movie. I’m really pretty excited.
since the day we were officially on I never had a chance to enjoy the outside world of relationship. I escaped once and lied twice but after that I never had the chance to meet my girlfriends or my best friend or else I’ll be guilty for his death. We never parted ways, literally never. like everyday forever. specially now that I don’t go back to south trying to cool things down, I’m 24/7 try-to-escape-and-you-will-die guarded. Like the usual, one of the common problem - the friendship bonding issue. He’s almost perfect except for the fact that he is obsessive, possessive type. He never lets me go out, he never let me catch up with my friends or even to chat with them and have their number save on my mobile phone. I’m not even allowed to go out if I’m wearing shorts or sleeveless top. I understand and my mom agreed on him being too protective but as a woman, if I have a chance to look nice I will wear a nice dress yet he never approve that. Its a good feeling thou, to have someone I don’t need to pretend or hide anything. Its a new experience to commit relationship to guy who’s just living next to door. communication and loyalty isn’t my concern but my main problem ever since is there are so many no policies that can choke me. Thats why I stay away in fb and whenever I curse my life for having him I translate my language and tweet it in twitter haha. Past deceived me many times than my stories. From that pain, I had promised myself I will never ever change myself for someone over my friends. Cus at the end of the day: relationship will end, boys will leave but my friends will always be there. I will never understand his terms the same way he never grant my wishes. well thats fine, you know perks of being older than him.
today, we were so full on our late lunch date that we cannot even stand up. I look at him, wonder i don’t know why on earth this boy never get tired of going back and forth to north and south just to see me. how this boy manage to stay with me despite all my bad mood. Maybe thats love and the reason why mom really like him. After couple of hours in cubao, our money are running low. We never had a problem in terms of financial but when we head back to my apartment at 9 pm I can see it stress him out. I whisper it doesn’t matter we have no baby no feed haha. This week we hit all the shops we see and dine on anywhere we want thus the result is now. I now understand why some student eat on a cheap eatery. Soon enough I think we or me will try it out. In fact I much like it when we have nothing, when I have nothing cus thats when I found out how strong and acceptable we are to each other. To our relationship it has been tested, good or bad whatever happens I know we will make it through.