feeling super duper mega laaaazy.

"Well, I think there is a difference between loving the idea of someone and actually loving who they are."

Elizabeth Burke (via onlinecounsellingcollege)

I have the same coat and boots.

(via streetstyle)

For Fall 🍂

• dark lips
• hw / distressed pants
• sweat shirts
• boots

wear and tear

I’m getting insane over these trendy styles around the market. You know, black, black and black. I promise to be comfy and casual this year but hey I love black so much. I really want crop tops and high waist shorts thou I’m not comfortable with its length and I’m not sure if I have the guts to wear it outside thou I have the bod but my super conservative, green light type of boyfriend will never let me go out wearing those. Since we’re together I cannot wear 3/4s of my wardrobe. I was like: jeans, basic blouse and flats thats all and I’m free to go. Hay


was forced to say what I’ve been deciding to say thou it slipped nominally. I can’t even picture what my day would look like if my partner in crime is gone. If i’m being selfish, I would do the things I miss doing but Its hard to break a heart who doesn’t give you any heart attack. I always choose amendment because its worthy thou he don’t deserve me. they say pain change you and yes I am one of the victims. sometimes I blame my past for all these changes. it affects me mentally, emotionally and my present relationship. I feel sorry on myself especially on him. I couldn’t help it. its hard to match love on a new bloom of love than to ruined person love right? He’ll never understand. I stop trying. There are times I regret having him cus its quite suffocating. And there are so many things I am thankful for. I stopped complaining. I gotta keep on work things out with the person I found and be blessed than to throw it all because of misunderstanding. We’ll never be perfect but this relationship is so much better than I ever have. He may always call me maldita or numb but it doesn’t mean i’m careless. i will keep this cus hey gel is the most annoying person but the most sweetest, loving bf I’ve ever had. such a great man to love.

in a cold room under warm blankets.

Today I learned:

that twitter isn’t the safest space to dump my drunken blather. He and nothing but he, will always find things out.

good things to tell yourself everyday

❁ i am worthy
❁ i am more than my appearance
❁ i am loved
❁ i am cared for
❁ i am strong
❁ i am beautiful
❁ i am a good person
❁ i am allowed to get rid of the toxic people in my life
❁ my body does not define me
❁ i deserve respect
❁ i deserve good things
❁ i do not need to justify my actions
❁ and most importantly, i can get through anything.

(Source: useyourmelody, via livin-on-endorphins)




(via vintageux)

"Talking, kisses, warm hands and talk of breasts, soft and tender and hard strongness. Creative play and light laughter and warm richness, ineffable richness flooding where from? Not just sex, not just familiarity, but partly. Because there has been cold, sterile, desperate devouring, and not this warm, full, flowing over in loving laughter. Food and nourishment, replenishing the beaten blue and black mind and bodies, desiring more, yet somehow satisfying even without fulfilling. Each an outlet for the other."